ugh


October 13th, 2011

someone i follow was posting ‘weird’ art of them n i was like wow we r so connected but i just checked my likes n it mustve been frm my dreams

October 13th, 2011

someone i follow was posting ‘weird’ art of them n i was like wow we r so connected but i just checked my likes n it mustve been frm my dreams

i h8 atheists i dont rlly like when ppl are certain abt things there is no way to be certain of but i esplly dislike atheists i always think of insecure men like that episode of kuwtk where bruce is v rude n dismissive of this man who’s recounting his alien abduction n this guy was a rlly big fan of his n dressed up for him n u could tell how disappointed he was n it would be rude regardless but it made me even more upset at bruce like why do u feel the need to constantly assert ur disbelief when it’s making everyone uncomfortable n hurting someone else it’s so obvs it comes frm a place of pride n insecurity he even said in the interview like ‘i raised them better then this’ he was embarrassed his kids believed n he wants it to be known he would nvr be as ‘foolish’ like whatever maybe he was abducted maybe that’s how he processed a traumatic event he went missing for days n these r his memories idk but putting ur “reputation” as a “sensible man” above everyone else’s feelings just seems rl gross 2m 

my brother was relally upset his angry face where his browns r drawn v tight n his mouth is open and snearing n he was saying “no!” like like why should i acept this behaviour n he was pushing me with a stick or somehthign he was pushing me from a distance of a few fet away maybe his arm was just extended rl far he was stopping me frm hurting my father 

my father n my sister’s husband were in the living room my mother was there too but but i didnt see her she didnt speak but i knew she was sitting in her usual spot i ws upset i felt disrepected by both of them my father n my sister husband two leos i made i comment abt how he lorens husband was ashamed he was gonna get fired for not passing a drug test n he made a dismissive face n he n my father joked n laughed n my father made a joke abt him h—— stabbing me n i was v upset n i started trying to assault him attack him but it had no effect they kept laughing at me n my brother showed

n i kept saying cursing n yelling n trying to hurt them al physically or emotionally n they kept laughing 

if i lived alon i would nvr wear a bra but the fear of being caught braless keeps me in one i hate my tits too much to be unclothed for any extended bit f time

^ lmao i wrote this last night before i went to sleep n today my mom told me i look like a 56 yr old housewife with sagging tits i was wearing a bra without underwire or padding to push them up my most comfortable bra actually one of only two i own that doesn’t cut into my skin because theyre too tight around cause my size is usually more expensive so i just buy ones that fit in the cup n fuck up my body i was also wearing a tank top n a cardigan n i guess u could see a sliver of my bra which is what prompted the comment at least thats what my mom said when loren asked what was wrong with her she also said ‘look at her it’s true’ n ‘u deserve everything u get’ 

there are so many men i want to stab to death