probably not too much better though on second thought 

disc-93:

Something I struggle with which kind of relates to blogging is the temptation to make vague statements about ultra personal things to make myself seem more in whatever way and less in whatever way than just putting myself there and giving other people the opportunity to take it however they like. Just saying this is what I did today, this is how I feel about this, this is what I am feeling today, this is who I am as a person rather than saying too much and at the same time not enough (too much in the wrong way) and running away or hiding behind things. It’s the brave thing to do to just put yourself out there how you are and not try to alter other people’s perception of you because it’s not possible. I have tried and failed to do this 100+ times but I feel like this is the first time I’ve been able to put the idea into words and so maybe that means something? 

Another idea is replacing my own self with other people’s opinions of myself. I think Tumblr (and most places where large groups of people are kind of vulnerable) encourages this idea of you’re not beautiful until someone tells you they think you’re beautiful, you’re not smart until someone tells you they think you’re smart. It’s more like well I’m beautiful and you’re beautiful and everyone else is so what is wrong with you to make you think I’m not beautiful? Getting past the idea that people have their own ideas of beauty that aren’t shaped by other things and nothing is “personal preference” but if you don’t think I am beautiful then what is your idea of beauty and why should it matter to me? I am insecure enough to replace my own thoughts, feelings, opinions with other people’s and I have to stop it right now 

yeah i rlly relate i was trying to think what i meant by “feeling :/ towards my dash” like what :/ means n i googled isolated n resentful n neither of them made sense but i think “unfairly resentful” is the best i could phrase it outside of :/ n i think it has to do with me feeling influenced by the ppl on my dash n it being unavoidable like how i express n present myself changing n it seeming out of my control even though it’s not idk the “i have tried n failed to do this 100+ times’ bit is what i relate to most but i think i’ve gotten better idk 

fake-all-fake:

👰💏👫💍❤️ #worldsmosttalkedaboutcouple #zarry #hoe #love #vogue (at cloud 9)

same

fake-all-fake:

👰💏👫💍❤️ #worldsmosttalkedaboutcouple #zarry #hoe #love #vogue (at cloud 9)

same

disc-93:

I’m glad I’m a Leo/fire sign (idc about sagittarius really…) sometimes I hate Leos and being a Leo but right now I feel good about it. Leos are cool and powerful and brave (only talking about the women though)

i figured out if i go to ur archive n like the posts i can see them omg i am i creep but i rlly missed ur thoughts n presence in my life n e way i agree women i love women leos n haaaate men leos

duuuuuughhhh:

 does anybody know where victoria/hawaii/peggylipton is??? i rlly miss having her thoughts in my life n idk how to find her is she on tumblr does she have a blogspot i miss her im sad abt it

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( sigh

 does anybody know where victoria/hawaii/peggylipton is??? i rlly miss having her thoughts in my life n idk how to find her is she on tumblr does she have a blogspot i miss her im sad abt it